can i have a cookie?

I always drink a half-liter of water right before I go in to audition, it keeps my mouth from getting dry like it does when I get nervous. Seems to work. If it’s just the placebo effect, I don’t want to know about it…

I’ve been arguing for atheism at forums.govteen.com a whole lot lately. Mostly that forums is just 12 and 13 year olds with dumbass questions on sex and girls and crap and I would recommend staying as far away from the puberty forums as possible, but there is some really great discussion going on in the religion forum way down the page. Very good on both sides, for the most part. Christians outnumber atheists by a lot judging by the poll, but most Christians don’t get involved in the debate. I’m going to look for some other teen forums and argue with them. If I can get one person to think about and reconsider their religion, find one person like myself, who was just going with the flow for 14 years, I will be very happy.

I don’t even know why I or any atheist would want to convert people, there is really no reason to for an atheist, unlike for a Christian, but it’s similar to why I would want to be moral and good without a reason like a Christian. It just seems like the right thing to do.

Had marching band at the football game tonight, our invitational tomorrow night. I am so excited about valleyfest this year, the ‘big’ competition. I’ve heard rumors from reliable sources that we were the best band at the last competition, which is incredible, it means we beat valley, one of the best bands in the state. They really didn’t do that good, though. Good timing since this is our head director’s last year and it would be awesome to send him off with a top 5 placing at valleyfest.

Homecoming was fun, there were some awkward times since this was both of our first times going to a dance with a date even though she was a senior and we’re both kind of introverted, but it turned out good in the end.

Thanks for your comment. Whether or not I believe that assuming that a force is inherently ‘beyond our comprehension’ is dangerous is irrelevant, it appears that you have personally put a lot of thought into what you believe and that’s all I can ask from anyone.

Yes. Sorry for the absence everyone but I’ve had several hours of homework every night and haven’t had any time for blogging. I’ll take a break from writing a 3-page essay on analyzing the tension between the outward conformity and inward questioning in the main character of Kate Chopin’s The Awakening (1899) to write a few things.

Homecoming is in 2 weeks or so and I finally had decided to ask the girl that 2 of my female friends have been harping on me to ask to every dance since freshman year. I was going to do it Friday, and got my spirits up all week only to be shot down when informed by those 2 female friends that she was already going with some guy from her church. They begged my forgiveness and I said that I was going to spend labor day weekend depressed and sitting in my room listening to linkin park but in truth I was just slightly disappointed since now I probably won’t be going to homecoming unless I can find someone else to go with.

I have the house to myself since my family is at 2 soccer tournaments in Omaha or something and won’t be back until sunday night/monday morning. I hope my friends are doing something tonight cause I’ll just get all depressed or something if I have to spend the whole time by myself. I’ve decided its not being alone or being with lots of people that makes me depressed sometimes, its the contrast between sudden changes to either extreme.
That’s about all that’s happening I guess.